Made in Milan. (OLD)

2007-03-26T15:59:00.001+08:00

2007-03-26T15:55:00.001+08:00

2007-03-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

The present situation, not of your making, is forcing you to compromise. You will have to hold back and forgo some of your hopes, dreams and aspirations.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment.
It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'.
Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

Did a test with some Colorgenics.
How freaking accurate its freaking me out.
Emotional rollercoaster.
They say there'll be rainbow after storms.

I'm anticipating :(

2007-03-23T14:44:00.000+08:00

Soooooo much on my mind, i may explode anytime.

The choice's obvious, but Im just reluctant to make the decision.

To or not to be.
Its too bleak, too fragile; ambiguous.

Sigh i must camp over at joyce's soon or i may go BOOOOOOM*! someday.

Hold me tight; i dont feel it
Im trying, cant u see?

2007-03-23T14:04:00.000+08:00

Work stopped a few days ago, and its slacking at home shaking leg til now.

Oh its workout day ytd! Headed to our long awaited classes at Amore.
Never was someone with the natural beat, I was initially afraid. But darling and I totally enjoyed ourselves and grooove, shake and more shake the class away. Hurhur. LATINOOO ;)

After classes.

With that worm in my stomach :p

The big eyed and me :(

Oh yes, went Sentosa this week toooo!!!

Touch Pool

Random

Harlequin Shrimp (OUR FAVE, see below)

awwww

Random

Seaworms!!

We visited the pink dolphin too, but no pics.
So, there. Underwater world sentosa.
We strolled along Palawan beach, and my,
it was a beautiful sight.

Oh did i mentioned we helped some Jap tourists with the locker?
Was a very omg moment, we couldnt communicate.
I wanted them to wait while i get help, but they dont understand my actions.
So i blurted,
"Jo-toh-ma-te" (pls hold on, or wait a while in jap)
They immediately nod and smiled.

Phew. !

2007-03-19T00:29:00.000+08:00

To, or not to be..

Eloquent, or not.

Same frequency, or not.

Secure, or not.

Sick, or not.

Comm. breakdown, or not.

Barriers, or not.

Lasting, or not.

Thoughts beguiling me of my strength to keep it running. Paranoid, immense phobia.

Not the 'outside' factors.

Don't even try to guess.

Minor setbacks. Major problem.

One time, gone.

Twice, down.

It shouldn't be this way?

I'm still thinking.

2007-03-17T11:30:00.000+08:00

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
'Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true,
could you really be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now
Before I fall in love

I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Oh please
Give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one
And that you'll always be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now
Before I fall in love

It's been so hard for me
to give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say

2007-03-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

Channel 5's blockbuster Sunday movie:

Andrew Lloyd Webber's The Phantom of The Opera

645pm Sunday, 18th March

If you have not watched it,I strongly urge u to catch it.

Its so wonderfully depicted; makes me dream and wanna go back to those nineteen centuries' Paris.

Makes me wanna sing like THE Christine Daae.

Makes me wanna own a boyfriend so rich and handsome like Raoul.

Makes me wanna have a 'stalker'(HAHA) like THE Phantom.
(Gerard Butler again! GAHGAH!!)

Love me, thats all I ask of you

Phantom's lair

Omigosh. Its back to the phantom craze again.
Never fails to make me all teary eyed seeing the ending.

Off to watch the dvd again for the dunno-how-many times!

2007-03-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

Finally caught 300 ytd.

Leonaidas, baby!

He's the only thing worth watching, for me. So totally outshine the main actor, I dont even know the Persian King was main actor until I checked it out. Gosh. On the other hand, Rodrigo Santoro(Main actor, Persian king) was kinda cute in real life luh.
Anyway.
I totally dont like the slashings and bloody scenes. One slash and the head comes off. HA ! So computerised. tsk.

A pity. Couldnt find any pics with my king's eight packs):

Gah, I adore him soo much can. Even before 300. Was head over heels over him. Like, gorgeous, charming, and real manly(unlike those stupid young pretty taiwan boy-idols), ruggard, charismatic, suave, delicious (OPPS) and can sing! Boy, he sure can. His role in phantom is still deeply etched ..

Oh phantom, my Erik... *hyperventilates*

But alas, phantomoftheopera the musical (coming to Singapore in March) does not feature him as THE phantom. Well, hope my $122 doesnt goes down the drain..

GERARD GERARD GERARD!!!

2007-03-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

So at least there's something to be happy about. Joycee darling and I signed up the long awaited Amore courses.

Yes yoga; and latino - we're coming!!

Omg,, pardon the smirk i had :d

Work's coming to a halt, thank goodness. Its been working-madness all the while.
School's starting really soon.
Can't wait.

Oh and erm. Im thinking and dreaming of tennis.
Yes, tennis.
Really. Someone someone teach me. *nudge nudge*

Digressing.

I miss my lovey-dovey-mushy-boyfriend ):

2007-03-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

Now what was I thinking?

Prior to ytd's post; UPDATED now:

I should dig a hole in the ground, yes.

But i will kick YOU down there instead. Why shld I sacrifice myself and allow ur triumph?!

You stay there forever, ******

2007-03-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

At times like this, I really wanna dig up a hole in the ground and hide there forever.

2007-03-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

oooh,

Hello Mass Comm !! (;

2007-03-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

Bliss.

Out with honey shuhui today. Met boyfriend in e evening. Umm mmm..

Pure indulgence; sinful-ness~!

Holland V's haggaen daz.

Shuhui's. (forgot dish name)

My 'Venetian Love'. <3

Holland village's really nice. Especially Haggen Daz.
Great for couples to cuddle up and chill.

Shopped around. Haha, my girl didnt bought anything today hor! Good girl luh shuhui sweet. :d

Met dearie for dinner. Fish & co. Great place, nice ambience.

'Seafood platter for two'. LOVE LOVE LOVE

And tweedledeeedee, finally got my long awaited phone today. But not in the pink i've always wanted!! Gah. Extinct alrdy, no choice, brown left ):

Oooh. Long day.
Blisssss~

GDI. Work tml.
(argh wats with the 'g.d.i' nowadays)

Tralala. Happy tuesday, loves.

2007-03-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

Many things get predictable after a while.

You seem to know what's gonna happen next most of the times. Geddit?
For example, someone says smth, you could alrdy guessed what's the next line;

or the actions that goes along.

People relations, are vaguely similar.

Or if you see what im trying to depict.

This shld be the utmost biggest fear and worry I think I wld be facing soon.

Surreptitiously devouring me, whole.

2007-03-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

Im soooooo gonna catch 300.

Starring GERARD BUTLER.
I dont care if its some crazy war fighting fantasy movie.

oh phantom.. SING TO ME!!

2007-02-28T19:54:00.001+08:00

G-D-I.

G.D the bloody rain.

G.D the irritating people.

G.D the IMBECILE AND SERIOUSLY DISGUSTING GUY.

I've always hated rainy days. Like really really hate it. It totally spoils my mood, makes me go all sleepy, spoil plans, getting wet if forgotten to bring umbrella, not able to wear heels properly, having stupid rain smell, having to squeeze in the bus (DARN) and bus stops, getting beloved bags wet, .........

TODAY I'm seriously irritated by a freaking disgusting big sized (fat and fugly) man. As if squeezing on the bus with another 41867635 people is not "high" enough, I had to stand near that bastard. As the sardine-packed bus swerved a corner, I lost balance and HAD TO lean on HIM. WTH !!Then I caught a glimpse of his poked-marked face.. he was smiling. Of course, not smiling big luh, but that little sly grin. WTH. I had to lean into him and it was totally a bloody accident.

What was that ass thinking?

That im some little clumsy thing? OR WHAT? I dun even want think. Worse, afterI moved a few inches away(best I could)- that DUNG followed suit, as if being pushed by the NOT-MOVING-CROWD, leaning onto me from behind.

I should have farted and scare him away.

But thank goodness I alighted the next stop.

Seriously. Some guys are certainly pathetic. Everything happened too fast, all I thought of was to moooove away - fast.

I think Im being too kind, bastard. Try some other girls and u may get slapped in the face, u dung.

P.S: Okay, joking bout the crazy farting part luh, i am so not in the right state of mind now.

YIKESSSS!

2007-02-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

Its a bad day.
Anyway
its like,
when am i having a good day in years? Gah.

Oh.
I would love if someone could tell me how to get my hands on this.
I was told there is no more left in the stores,
but
I wont give up. (yes yes, dearie)

Model: LOV-06A-7ADR
I could kill for this. Seriously.

Someone help?

2007-02-21T13:22:00.000+08:00

My mood is plunging into an abyss.
Why do things only get worse with time?
I can't even describe the agony and pressure now.

Oh great.

When did everyone turned into some bloody irritating discriminating bastard?

2007-02-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

CNY Part II

How's CNY for you?

Yu Sheng! (looks crappy, prepared by sis and me :p )

Fireworks - star shaped??

KIDS.

Flowers at Sentosa

Geez.

Just some very very random shots luh. Had enough fun these two days, time to enter back reality tml.

And for shi en, here's the pic of the topshop bag I've promised 154682 years ago :p

New GUESS? bag ! Shuhui baby has one too ;)

PS: kudos to boyfriend for those v.pretty bags. (:

LOVES !

CNY I

2007-02-18T18:10:00.000+08:00

CNY Part I

Its the first day of new year.

Pretti-ful !!

Part II tml.

Happy CNY =D

2007-02-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

Oh its a nice day.

Shopping's ALWAYS nice.

Especially with bestie.

Weiyi's supposed to join us.

But ..

Hokay dookey.

BTW BTW BTW!

I've got a ZA eyeliner today.
Tried it on when i got home.
And my eyes are sooo red now.
I tink its allergy.
I dont know.
Gah.

MY BUCKS !!

Bullocks.

2007-02-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

LEAVE-ME-ALONE

and i mean it.

2007-02-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

its Valentine's.

~

To my dearest;

-just for you.

For all I've been blessed with in this life
There was an emptiness in me
I was imprisoned by the power of gold
With one honest touch you set me free
Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true

In this life, I was loved by you

Nobody gonna love me better; i must stick with you forever
Nobody gonna take me higher; i must stick with you.

Happy Valentine's to you, my sweetest.

2007-02-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Im ~~confident~~ of getting into my first choice. (though "ASSURED" by 3 lecturers, GAH.)

By the way.

Its 14 feb in like, a few more minutes.

Valentine's this year will be sooooo lonely.

Yes, my baby is working, like full shift?!. (DAMN !!)

What could be worse without the sweetie pie beside me?! *wails*

Soooooo not fair.

Its Valentine's for goodness sake.

A one-year-once-affair, and we cant be together on the day.

Im grumbling and whining non-stop.

THIS IS SOOOOO NOT FAIR!!!

2007-02-11T10:36:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..

1) Thanks all for the good luck-s and congrats sms-es and tags and calls.
(specially to liwen, shuhui & boyfriend. im so blessed to have u three, loves!)

2) Fretting over courses stuff.

3) Been uber crazy since friday. (sorry for late replies especially to shuhui again)

4) Want to talk to weiyi, see kay and shuhui ASAP.

5) Shopping later, again! (sponsored. TEEHEEHEE!!!)

Hoho, spotted a powDerful duo ytd while working. I think they're having some cos play thingy.
Zhiming laughed and i laughed our heads off while we sabo-ed louis to take picture with them. :p

Louis on the far left !

Powderful duo ! ;)

They're so cute luh. Ask them come in take photo, without hesitation, came in. LOL.
We must have a cos- play party soon. Teeheeeheeeee!!!

And yes, cam whoring with liwen on friday post-results-shopping!!

:)

teehee :)

Take care and good luck in the JAE thing, everyone.
Im gonna aim for media communications or optometry.
Bless me!

2007-02-09T10:54:00.000+08:00

Oh-my-gosh.

Okay, time to cross fingers..

GAH!!!

2007-02-07T20:47:00.000+08:00

Mahlehmaleh-hom!.

Its gonna be friday soon, so don't deceive yourselves.

We've waited for sooo long.

Its here.

Cant wait. I have this tingling feeling leh. Good or bad?

Whatever it is, we're gonna face it.

" Results?Just bring it I say. "
as quoted from EUGENE- :p

Btw, I really wanted to go on a cruise!
And am looking for lobangs!!
Someone say smth !!!
):

On an entirely different note, heard this over the radio this morn:

"you actually look smaller in the mirror than you actually are,"

Gosh.!!!!!

erm, yay?

2007-02-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

Oh FUHUA, FUHUA.

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/viewPost1639.aspx

Oh get a life, principal. We miss mr ong kian choon. :(

~

Its SATURDAY/.

Met up with bestfriend today.
Yes, and boyfriend too, after that.
Shopping til we drop in town.
I think my card almost snapped into two.
Did crazy stuff with bestfriend. (awww, good times :p)
Strolled with boyfriend along the streets at night.
Aww.
Totally makes my day.

LOVE.

Watching dvds with baby sister later.
Ooh, life is marvy.

Loves. <3

2007-02-01T20:18:00.000+08:00

Its not the best day for me today.

Roller coaster mood swings.

Yea, u know it.

And ..

Dearest shi en, I'll post pics of the bag soon ya? Promise.

(:

2007-01-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

Oh, its a beautiful day. (with a slightly rough start tho. *glares at boyfriend*)

And I finally went shopping. Like its been, erm, 1678984365476 years since I've shopped?
( HA STUPID EXAGGERATION )

The feeling of spending and spending and spending is such awesome-ness.

So.
To sum it up nicely; I got a rrrrrrrrrrreally gorgeous bag from topshop. LOVE u sweetheart! (:

Back to reality tml. Awwwww damn it ..

2007-01-28T19:39:00.000+08:00

Its a grreat family day. Visited the farms today. Oh great.

First we went Hay's Dairies.

HOWDY!

Spotted this cute one. GAH

PS: this one's without one horn. Poor thing.

Ha. Tho i really cant stand the stench, they're really adorable little things.
~~I will never touch kambing soup (mutton soup) again!~~

Oh yes yes.

Then we visited other farms. The dragonfruit farm beside the Hay's was so kampong luh. And even more smelly than the goats.

But the fruits are like, oh-my-god-yummy.

So, gotta pay the price for those yummies.

Urh!

sorry for the abrupt end of this random post cuz im feeling really random and bored and stuck for words and dun really feel like yada-ing anymore. );

2007-01-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

I wanna wanna wanna go cruise!!!

2007-01-22T13:33:00.000+08:00

Hola.

While everyone's busy working/studying,
Im munching on a big and crunchy and nice and red and juicy apple.

and curling up in the couch with my novel.

Two days off my "always-super-uber-crazily-tired-and-packed-schedule".
and Im not gonna waste any time.

Did my noticeboard, and cleared up the mess of junk in my room.

Finished the last bit of the novel, and heading to the library later.

Well o well. Have not been doing photoshop makeovers for people, and did one just now.
Oh, my skills are improving. :p

Btw, I've tried to be nice.
Approachable and all.
And i can sadly say, I've failed.
*shrugs*

Gah.

2007-01-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

Im so gonna breakdown soon.

2007-01-19T21:18:00.000+08:00

Life's been revolving around few things -slacking, work, and boyfriend.
Its like a routine.
The sun rises, the sun sets.

Realised I've been missing those girls in my life.
My listening ear, my bitching partners, my babes.
Oh man.
Sudden crave for ngshuhui and tokweiyi.
Like really really miss them.

Ima little critical nowadays.
Fretting over the slightest things.
Can't help it, i think too much.
Gah-

Been cleaning up my room.
Looking for ideas to make it more girly.
Trying to furnish it like how i want it to be.
Lots of cash needed.
That suck.

Have not been shopping like for a trillion years.
Im desperately broke.
Pay's not here yet.
Oh no, no.

Anticipating for yoga lessons to start.
Oh please.

Results are gonna be released soon.
I think I will do good.
I think.
Ha, the irony.

Digressing.

I so totally hate those HO*G K*H SEC kids hanging around my lift lobby.
Like, they're only lower sec kids.
Short pants and all.
And smoking already.
Making a nuisance.
Oh shit.
Those girls.
Acting lian and all.
Oh crap.
Like retards.
Dimwits?

I've seen them like two days in a row already.
From morn til evening.
They're there.
Wth?

So.
Vivo tml.
Hope both mommy-s are workin.
Oh gosh.

Sunday's shopping day.
Like finally.
Eventually.
Ha, ha ha.
Baby's gonna bring me out.
Im loving it.
He's so cute.
My charming little thing.
Ooh those puppy dog eyes..
And the ........

I melt.

Anyway.
I hope my bunch of pals frm class 5A are doing good.
Havent been contacting.
The chalet has been a little too separated, actually.
If you get what I mean, that is.
Hope we'll have an outing soon or smth.
Maybe I'll plan.
Maybe.
Those who want to be absent can by all means get lost.
I mean it.
Kinda spoil the moods of others.
Oh , oh oh.
I can forgive, but I will never forget.
So,
ya.

Been going through loads.
Nostalgia overwhelms.

2007-01-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

Suffering from inferiority complex.
Comparison (especially from someone dear) ; the hidden attack, devours me. Whole.
Gah, darn it.

And my mood is plunging real fast.

Like real real real fast.

And im thinking alot again.

Please i need a shrink- like, immediately.

Please.

2007-01-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

Im craving for my sweetesthoneypie - boyfriend!!. ):

2007-01-11T19:41:00.000+08:00

My mood is damned as the weather. Im aghast at words spoken and actions done. Im in painful agony. This is, HELL.

Bloody suckers, bloody old suckers. Bloody senseless old dimwits. I dont even think there is a seriously suitable vulgar word; much less a term, a vocab; to describe those suckers.

DARN. I almost teared while waiting for bus home. I almost puked on the bus. My throbbing headache is killing me surreptitiously; the endless pain beguiling my strength to pull on.

Dont assume anything. Anything at all. Bloody dimwits.

Im not as naive and neither the stupid kid you think i am; to be bullied and kicked around.

At least, not anymore.

Someone crossed the line and crawl on top of me to maliciously force me down, some time ago.

But I survived, to her disappointment.

And I will not fail myself this time round.

Nope, not gonna declare anything.

I will disappear in your life.

And I hope you will; in mine.

Assholes, get lost.

You're old enough -one foot already in the coffin.

Bloody crap.

My mood stinks.

And I think Im gonna puke anytime.

My stomach's doing somersaults.

Everything is going against me.

SCREW YOU, SUCKERS!

I need my baby with me this very moment. Sigh.
Only he have the power to heal.

2007-01-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

" Absence makes the heart fonder. "

2007-01-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

Aye.

Feels kinda weird not waking up to the loud alarm, feels weird not sitting in daddy's car to vivo on a sunday. Cuz, its lik i've been working full shifts on sundays since i've been back. Gah, ok i miss those people at work.

Feels weird to having nothing planned today. Feels weird to be hanging ard at home nothing to do. Feels so, so empty.

A brand new start tml. Please let everything run smooth. Im drained.

Feels so attached to dearie nowadays. Less than 24 hours not seen him, feels like 24 years already. ):

Im groaning the whole day, moaning about everything, and soooo emotional today.
Im missing my darling; his hugs.
Im missing people at work (oh yes, mommy)
Im missing being busy and having something to do.
Im missing school.
Im missing exams.
Im missing mugging.
Im missing the adrenaline rush.

OH, yada yada yada..

2007-01-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY EIGHTEEN TO MY DEAREST BOYFRIEND !

Whooohooo. Sexy eighteen. Super eighteen. Wonderful eighteen. Charming eighteen. Exciting eighteen. Gahgahgah =D

My baby's eighteeen!!!

My sweetie's eighteen!!!

My darling's eighteen!!!!

Had a SUPERB day with you dearie. Love you truckloads. (:

2007-01-01T20:23:00.000+08:00

Happy 2007 everyone!

Hows the countdown party? It was an "aww-so-lovely-dovey-but-boring-yet-thrilling" night for me. Ha. Was working full at vivo, but headed down to suntec to help around 8 plus. Planned to meet boyfriend at vivo. But since at suntec, might as well head to esplanade to join in the googoogaga./

So the long anticipated fireworks came. Aww. Sweet. But guess what man. Those at the other side of marina sq cant see a thing. Including me. Darn. They estimated wrongly i guess. (building blocked entire view) The fireworks was blasting at the other side, all those around my area couldnt see anything, only the boombooomboooooom! sound. GAH. We went along with the crowd, and caught a little of the finale. Whooohooo. Superb.

And then the exciting part came. We're all squashed like erm, sardines. Ha, i dunno how to describe. All i can say is that you must hold on tightly to ur mate, or you will be separated. Gosh.
There's a father looking frantically for his lost child, screaming the name. Aye, poor thing. And the darn crowd kept pushing pushing pushing. #*$#*^(# !!
Finally, about an hour later, we reached the mrt.

Parted with baby around 1:30 am. SWEEEEET. ;)

Thank goodness im off today. Woke up with terrible flu and sore throat. *whines*

Have you planned your new year resolutions? Uh-huh. Well, i did a little actually. But nah, not gonna post em up here. What's the deal of telling the whole world, huh? No offence to anyone tho.

Two more days to long anticipated chalet.
Five more days to baby's sexy eighteeeeeeeeeeeen!!

2006-12-30T02:01:00.000+08:00

Work sucks today. Bad bad bad. Im counting down to 5A's chalet. Cant wait, omigosh. Its gonna be so exciting, hahaha (ahem ahem).

Lost connection with tons of people, and i really miss them truckloads. However those that i DETEST just couldnt get out of my life. Damn it.

Sigh.

So much on my mind.

Gah. I shall be fine again after tml's date with NGSHUHUI. Hoho.

Such a very random post. :(

2006-12-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

Gah. Too bored. Did this:

Yada yada. 80% true. Not the fickle part of course! Hoho.

2006-12-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

Boyfriend's sexy eighteen in 10 days time.

Whooohooo.Oh my sweetheart. ;)

2006-12-25T10:17:00.000+08:00

Before i knew it, im back in singapore again.
I love Bangkok.
Its nothing like singapore.
Lovely place.
Yummy food.

I wanna go back there i dont care i dont care i dont care i dont care !!!

(PS: i wanted to upload those photos, but due to some complications, will be uploaded later. Or not. GAH)

Urh huh.

So huiru came visiting me ytd. Aww. Its so nice seeing her again. Like so god-damn long not saw any of 5A's people. (except TERENCETANKERQIN. =p )

Therefore, Im very very very lookin forward to the class chalet.
I hope all would go, but some "omg-bloody-losers" should stay away.
Really.
C'mon, dont spoil mood leh.

Its christmas today.
Did santa drop by last night? HAHAHAHA.
Mine did. (=

Merry christmas !!!

2006-12-18T09:27:00.000+08:00

Im flying in 3 hours time!!

Gah.

2006-12-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

L is for the way you look at me.

O is for the only one i see.

V is very, very extraordinary.

E is even more than any one you can adore-

Love is more than i can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please dont break it

LOVE-
was made for me and you.

:)

2006-12-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

Went holland v with bdae boy guiyuan, gene, darling and liwen. The Settlers cafe. Hoho. Good place. Right guys? *wink wink* Tahah.

Hohohohoho. 2 more days to bangkok. CANT WAIT. REALLY. I can feel the tom yam already can. hahahaha. slurp slurp./

Im happy these days. Jaunty. Blessed. Ah, life is good.

Im not even sian even having to work tml. Cuz both my mummy-s are working. <3
But i super dislike the KEVIN and the LOUIS can. Oh gosh. SOME guys are such a pain in the ass. Gah gah gah.

Oh yes yes, i got into pioneer jc. Yays? Awww.

Im missing my boyfriend. :(

2006-12-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

Its been a busy week. Im back finally!! My life revolves ard a few things basically- WORK, SLEEP and EAT.

And THE DARLINGSWEETIEMUFFINTERENCETANKERQIN also. Teeheee!

Oh and i miss days with my lovlies too. I miss the NGSHUHUI and TOKWEIYI, and loads of ppl from 5A. Aye darlings, loves loves loves !! <3

Lots has been on my mind, and such an irony. Gah, nevermind, skip this part.

Btw, its chalet tml !!! oooooooh baby...... HAWHAWHAW~

Its gonna be sooooo exhilarating. Loads of stuff comin up..

1) 6 days to BANGKOK
2) 14 days to CHRISTMAS
3) 23 days to 5A chalet
4) 25 days to baby's sexy eighteeen (:

Hehe.

2006-12-06T12:11:00.000+08:00

Im feelin freaking terrible. All started with flu. Woke up ytd with terrible sharp pain in my stomach. Sigh. Food poisoning . Darn.

Im still feeling sick, weak and insanely terrible. Cant go out today. Sigh.
Sis gg shopping can! Sigh.

When will i recover.......

2006-12-04T10:22:00.000+08:00

Life has been uber tiring, but sweet.

Blissfully sweet.

Lots of love in the air.

Whoots.

2006-11-30T19:19:00.000+08:00

I, follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin
to live again?

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
What more could your love do for me?
When will love be through with me?
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day
when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away

Fly, fly away................................

2006-11-29T17:02:00.000+08:00

Today is my off day.

Boyfriend too busy with earning money to accompany me.

Darlings are busy too.

Seems like nobody is free.

Im seeking solace by munching on snacks.

Im piling on weight soooon.

Which is good, i think.

But.. GAH.

Aye, this post is so random.

Im just wasting time.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAH !

2006-11-28T08:59:00.000+08:00

Oh, my lovey-dovey-sweetie-honey-bunny-yummy-cutie-baby muffin.

Loving it. <3

Btw, work's tough. Back aching only after a few hours. Cannot tahan ah.
Some customers really deserved to get spanking. Seriously.

#$&*^*&$^ ...

2006-11-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

After days of rotting at home with too much sims,

its a kickstart of the week by starting work tml at vivo.

Come come find me. Teehee!

2006-11-23T21:11:00.000+08:00

Im giving up hope.

All is ~~not~~ lost.

2006-11-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

CHANGES. Scares me.

I've always believed in giving and taking; being receptive and reciprocative. I think I had done all that i could.
I kept quiet;
and silence was taken for granted.

Its a two way thing.

I crossed my fingers, i prayed and hoped with my heart.

It still happened.

Not once. Not the first time.

Everyone is evolving. Which is a good thing, of course. But what happens when you really cannot understand;
and nothing seems to click anymore?

..................................................................................................................................................
This one is concerning a BLOODY HYPOCRITE in my class. Heard this frm a friend.
Friend was at somewhere one day, and bumped into this bloody loser.
Sadly, they were from the same class for FIVE YEARS.
Friend went over to say hi.
That bloody loser pushed friend away, shrieked "I DONT KNOW YOU!" and scatter away.

Its not like they have not met for long. Its like, only 24 hours apart from last meeting in class.

How would you feel if you were my friend?

Chatted with dear liwen on the phone just now. Yes my dear, indeed everyone is drifting away.
..............................................................................................................................................

Sigh. I mean everyone, seriously. Even closest people. I dont know you anymore. Of course, i understand the anxiety of wanting a revamp after so long. Yes, i do. But.. it isnt there anymore.
The connection. Everything. I wanted so much for you to be back with me, but i cant feel it anymore. No, dont humour me anymore. No matter how much you claimed, i cannot feel the sincerity again.

Im not trying to control you.

Neither trying to stress you.

Im not one who can hide it. My agony. Who undestands?

Talked to my sis about it. She gave me a shrug. Sigh. I think she sees my point too.

Im looking at a blur future - bleak. It doesnt spell good.

Im holding on, as long as i could. I told myself, i must.

Perservere.

But how long can i withhold this? How long can i continue to smile for you?

Differences. It scares me.

Trembling, i will hold on -
but I dont know how long i will last...

2006-11-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

Everything ended ytd. But no one screamed after the paper leh. Ha, rushed home and get ready to meet my sweethearts/.

Went chapter 2 to cut hair. Hoho, 4 inches gone. Im so relieved, yet miss my long hair. Ironic eh. Maybe i will dye soon. Oh, and i heard jj is gg to dye red with green stripes. Right? To celebrate christmas ma. HAHAHAHAH. (jk la.)

Headed down to vivo today and bumped into see kay and gang. Ha, sat in a row beside the fountain.

Took a shot of the guys!!

wah piang eben dun want smile-

So we strolled ard the mall. Kinda boring actually. So many shops, no $$.

Oh, may be going back fila. (last option actually)

I need a job sooon. $$$$$$$$$$$$$!!!!!

My dearest joyce is gg bangkok tml. Take care babe! ( rmber my wallet hor.) HAHAHA. ;)

Last but not least,

the cutest funniest happiest lamest sweetest craziest madness US.

2006-11-21T02:50:00.000+08:00

Umm. New skin. I like. Hours of killing brain cells paid off.

Will blog tml. My eyes are so heavy and its 3 am. GAH.

2006-11-19T21:29:00.000+08:00

OMFG. TOMORROW WE'RE ALL GONNA FLY. YAHOOOOOOOO!!
(poor muffin still has dnt. nvm, JIAYOUS x 1879835468687985!!! LOVES ! )

Its final goodbye.
I'll miss most of the people in my class. Seriously. But some pathetic souls must be erased. teehee. (:

Oh, its my beloved weiyi's bdae tml! Oh, oh, oh!!

We're all gonna meet tml!
Joycee, Weiyi and Huiting!! (where's my cecilia la!)

LOVES LOVES LOVES.!!!!! <3

2006-11-14T18:07:00.000+08:00

Everyone's looking real haggard.

Too much mugging.

Machiam no life.

After monday,

Its time to party.

Let your hair down,

and just scream your head off.

I'm so looking forward,

to so many things planned.

After 20th of nov,

im gonna fly.

And kiss that school,

those suckers,

goodbye.

I should be mugging,

for the last few papers.

But however it seems,

"later, later, later, later, later, "

Oh my, my.

Such random post.

EVERYTHING is gonna change after this.

WAIT AND SEE.

2006-10-30T14:16:00.001+08:00

21 more days.....

TO POST-O'S.

Then its finally over.

EVERYTHING. *GRINS*

OOOH I CANT WAIT. (=

2006-10-22T16:08:00.000+08:00

I FEEL UBER TERRIBLE.

No doggy shows, no book fair.

DARN IT.

2006-10-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

Have the patience, read this, and feel it.

There were little red flowers all over your white pleated skirt, and the flowers bloomed, getting bigger and bigger, more and more.

It was beautiful.

The crimson flowers slowly blossomed on the pleated skirt; some flowers were darker red, some were brighter.

Red, contrasted on the white material.

The flowers were those, dripped from your nose.

I reached out, gripping your small hand, not realising the coldness of your hand.

Just like how you did not realise, the glass shards embedded in your flesh.

I implored you not to go, and that the ambulance was on its way.

You said to ignore it, and you left.

Dissolved into a mist, settling on the cracked car window.

I did not object, resting my head on the steering wheel.

Letting tears fall.

Dreaming of you.

I already told you not to leave, but yet you did, and you did not even tell your parents.

They even thought that it was me who told you to leave.

Your mother came to my house.

Her eyes were red, and she scolded me, "It's all your fault", and threw the letters, those that I had written to you in the past, on to the floor.

Those letters used to be in a shoe box.

It's the shoe box from Prada - those shoes that you wore to the prom.

It was after work, that I brought cash to Paragon to buy the pair of shoes.

Now, you have left, wearing that pair of high heels.

I am worried about you walking such a long distance in those heels.

There will be blisters on your feet, and I will not be there to drive you home.

It was not because of the high parking fees in Orchard, that I did not drive.

It was because my father did not allow me to drive his car anymore.

That is why I am at home now, writing you this letter.

It has already been 8 months, and though everyone else had already started school, but no one has called me up to attend again.

I do not know why; I only know my grandmother kept crying outside my room.

I end up writing to you.

After I finished, I will burn the letter for you, as well as the letters I wrote to you in the past.

I will also burn the shoe box for you, so that when you change into flat shoes, you can keep your Prada heels into the shoe box properly.

My parents refused to let me go out, therefore I cannot work.

Without the income at the moment, I cannot buy you any branded goods yet.

I have already uploaded the photos of the prom on to my blog.

You were really beautiful in your white top with crystal beads, and your white pleated skirt, and that pair of shoes.

Although you did not win the Prom Queen title, you were the most beautiful that night.

Serene is a councillor; that was why the teachers let her win the Prom Queen title.

Can you MSN me when you see the photos?

I know it was because you were angry with me, that's why you left in a hurry.

I shouldn't have quarrelled with you on the car.

Now I understand.

The Prom Queen title was important to you, and I shouldn't have said "It was no big deal to lose".

But I know you have already forgived me, and you missed me, that's why you came back to see me.

It's just that you are only throwing a small tantrum, that's why you didn't want to talk to me.

Because I can feel that you are just beside me.I saw you in the mirror, looking at me, when I was washing my face in the bathroom.

But you were gone when I turned around.

I know it is because you still did not feel like talking to me.

When I woke up in the morning and found bruises all over my body, I knew it was because you ran over to sleep with me on my bed, because you were afraid of ghosts at night.

Those bruises were evidence of your love for me, but I could not let my parents or teachers see them, because we were still young.

I also know, my wrists bled, because you are asking me to go accompany you.

Drop by drop, the blood spreaded on my white school pants.

Bigger, and bigger.

Look.

Doesn't it look like a heart-shape?

I'm serious. I'm not joking.Look.

Look carefully.

It's really a red heart-shape spreading on my pants!

Isn't is beautiful?

I want to be with you forever.

Please don't be angry with me anymore.

You will always be my Prom Queen.

I know, that the only way to see us together now, is when I close my eyes.

Me, in my suit, and you, wearing the Prom Queen sash.

I finally see it.

That we are together.

We are together.

Finally.. I see us together..

2006-10-20T12:44:00.000+08:00

WHOOHOO!!!

MADE IN MILAN IS BACK !

*hyperventilates*

Have you all missed me?

2006-09-28T17:00:00.000+08:00

Seriously, what is wrong with that girl?

Omg. The more i read her entries, the more i want to slap her with a tennis racket.

PLEASE. Bloody think, before you spit. Atrocious. What's with the stuck-up attitude man. Such a disgrace. Only one year younger than me, still so gaga.

Aye. Very random post. Just to vent my displeasure. GRRRRRRR

2006-09-25T19:36:00.000+08:00

OMFG.

Try sleeping at 4 in the morning, waking up at 12 the next day, and get to slp again 1 hour later from 12. And zzz all the way till 7. Whoohoo.
Yes, its me.

Oooooooh. Cannot wait for tml. And wednesday.!

Truckloads of pictures loading soon!

Till den/. =)

Oh yes.
I cant wait to smack that person too! *PIACK PIACK PIACK*

2006-09-20T10:46:00.000+08:00

I am confused by your subtle irony,
your tremendous effort to be the best
Yet your malicious true self -revealed.

Once again, welcome to this pseudo world. I guess its a trend to be deceptive nowadays.

It makes me shudder,
I weep.

Oh, grip a life. Such losers. Such pathetic souls. Dont have to think too far to whom i may be talking about all these while. Dont have to wonder. It may just be you.

Too many wandering losers. Im aghast at the thought of this. Where have the good old soul in you gone to?

Dont you ever insult me. Put me down, never. No, Im afraid you dont have the right to.

The sight of you irks me.
The thought of your actions makes me tremble.

I pray for your sins to be forgiven.

Stop the pretence.

Behold, the malign spirit strikes again.

2006-09-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

LOL.

Presenting my cute brother,

2006-09-15T14:48:00.000+08:00

Oh, girls these days. I have never been so disgusted. Whats with the X in the end of words? Whats with the EUU? Oh wth. Argh, the list goes on like there's no end. WTHWTH.
Im so sick of it.

Girls, its not at all cute. Its kinda retarded actually.

2006-09-09T17:54:00.000+08:00

"People who said they have not touched their books yet,

should be slapped in the butt. "

Oh, liars. Fakers. Why do u have to pretend about everything?

faker
noun : a person who makes deceitful pretenses [syn: imposter, impostor, pretender, fake, fraud, sham, shammer, pseudo, pseud, role player]

Oh boy, geddit? Urh~~~ AHAHHAHA.

P.S: this is dedicated to a person in mind while posting, so, no hard feelings to others, eh? Good. :)

2006-09-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

Okay folks, loads of thanks to those who cared. Those who sms-ed, and tagged. Now i can differentiate friends and acquaintance. Many have seen the post as i can see from the counter the number of people landed on this blog. But seriously, just how many cared? Maybe i get some whom even gloat over my misfortune.

Im alright now, i was on the brim on depression i guess. Too much to face all at one go. At least, it was too much for me. But im not gonna fall as you have anticipated.

Kudos to my godmama. Nobody can cheer and encourage me like she does.
And my dearie as well. Nobody else makes me feel wanted and loved. :)

2006-09-05T17:50:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. I am really sick and tired of everything. Im paranoid, and sad, and crying every now and then. Even now. WTH. I am so insecure, i feel so lost, i have no goal. Initially i went to visit blogs. And tears already stung my eyes back then. I stared at my screen. I reminisce. Everything just went zoom zoom zoom past. Sigh..........................................................................
I have absolute no more confidence, i am lacking of everything. I continue tearing, as i am typing this. Now what the hell is bloody wrong with me. Darn it. Damn everything. I am so worried of everything. I sat at the bus stop after alighting the bus just now. Im in a daze, i just stared at the cars passing, i look at the people hurrying. Sigh. Suddenly i felt like crying more. I duno. I thought of everything, and i nearly teared. Dun ask me what happened, or if i am alright. Nothing has happened, but everything is not right. I just feel like running and running and running and get into some accident and just bam. At this point of time, i am at the lowest anyone can be. I kept thinking of everything, i duno what, and i feel like a complete failure. I have no more life in me. Im a loser and nothing can bring me back. Oh god, im a pain to everyone, and i am the worst. Im such a bitch, im nothing.
Im afraid of losing you. Im afraid of everything.

2006-09-03T12:21:00.000+08:00

Oh, i should be mugging now.

But recently im so hooked onto deviantart. Im doing lots of stuff with my photoshop.
Yes, im doing makeup makeover for people too.

I may feature one of my successful makeover here soon.

Meanwhile, HAPPY MUGGING EVERYONE! =)

2006-08-30T22:07:00.000+08:00

Oh bother. Im bugged by dozens of problems, no body can ease my pain. Well lets put that aside for a sec, and countdown to 31 aug 2006. Its gonna be a blast i hope. :)

Argh. Im in the middle of nowhere, the crossroad junction and still loads of stuff keep piling on. Sigh, this is a crazy journey, people will do anything to get what they want. The steel hard fact. I've seen too much, heard too much, feel too much.

Im actually having this little voice inside me, never heard before. Controlling me. I've become such a pessimist, lah. I need aid.

Oh, insecure. Im feeling ever so insecure. I know, being over sensitive and allowing the little voice and the heart to rule the head is a complete disaster. But, you know. Girls are built this way, i mean, you cant doubt the fact that we're much more emotional than guys do. I need to find back the spark in me.

Ok. Im such a silly slug to allow myself blabbering such lengthy thoughts for everyone's viewing pleasure.

Anyways, gtg catch project runway. Today's the runway show. Cant wait. Maybe i could be a designer, too. (my little amibition when i was 5)

"Fashion faux pas.! "

"Such passe fashion designs!"

Maybe i could save the day, leh.Its me to the rescue. Whoots.Hahaha.

2006-08-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

Im sick, and im dying. Soon.

Tears cascading like there's no end........

2006-08-26T11:44:00.000+08:00

I shouldnt have been a wimp just now. DARN. I should have just faced it. dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can someone slap me with a smelly salmon?

2006-08-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

Oh faggot. Wanted to scream about that hypocrite, but decided that i shall be nice today. :)
I shall blog about nice things today. Oh, yes.

Life has been unbearably distressing, and im tortured exceedingly elaborate or intensely. Ahh..Nice.

Had to write a functional today on blogging. Learnt a lil about blogging:
Oh man, we are supposed to blog "with integrity", and not to use harsh language, and not to scream at people and not to make remarks, and not to even vent out fustrations. So if thats the thing, what the hell are blogs for? Its like, if you dont agree/like anything on someone's blog and purposely went to discrimate that person, than arent you sick? No, im just trying to state my point. Look, you dont have to visit the person's blog anyway, isnt it? Nobody forced you to read things you dont wanna see. Uh huh. Nice.

Im bugged with immense workload and im yet deprived of the little time i had left. Darn.Nice.

Oh, i had bad hair day the whole week. Argh. Nice.

Shucks. I hate myself for being increasingly sarcastic sometimes. Its so ironic isnt it?
But most of the times im nice. Really. Ha

2006-08-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

Oh man. It had been such a crazy week, i dun even find time to update! BAH. Im getting drowsy, the books causing the pain. Yada yada...

Well, there isnt much to yada about this week. Oh yah! Its that jackson's (jiaming, actually.) bdae today! Actually we had a birthday bash for him on fri. Nothing much, its rather okay. Erm.... ya.

Okay. Happy birthday to kiats too. Ya, the super see kay. =)

Happy sexy seventeen, boys. Rock on!

2006-08-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

So i went to the PATA forum with mates today. We arrived too early, lik a lil sumpat, thus we went to AH KUN for breakfast. Ummm mmm.

Well. Generally it was useful information for me, tho some speakers were SUPER "duh-uh". One angmoh also introduced to us the marina bay sands, the first integrated resort in, well, marina bay lah.

Oh my. I've decided my path already. In the tourism and hospitality industry, thats for sure. Its gonna be a tough, roller-coaster ride. But i will breeze thru it. I always do. rite? HA.

" in da toilet part 1"

"in the toilet part 2"

2006-08-10T19:35:00.000+08:00

Oh my. Im feeling so sore.
Its killing me;
gradually with its venomous fangs.
Im shivering;
shuddering,
almost fainting

So deeply filled with remorse.

A mingle of physical and emotional trauma;
i shut it closed.

Tear drops.
Gradually.
Continously.

-Im having a super terrible sore throat ever.

I dun wanna fall prey to the sin.

2006-08-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

Its been long. At this point of time, life suck big time.

2006-08-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

OMG i've got like a thousand things to complete and what the hell am i doing here. RRrrrrrrr.

I wished time stopped at that moment just now. TEEHEE. =p

2006-08-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

Oh, i love polka dots.

Spent a few hours dotting.

Re-constructing.

But looks like its worth it after all eh?

Gah.

2006-07-31T21:56:00.000+08:00

You achieved your goal today. I believe in retribution.

2006-07-30T19:48:00.001+08:00

Shopping. A word that a brings a GRIN on my face, a word to chase those sorrows away. Yes.YES! HA.

Went to a warehouse sale today, they're selling TOPSHOP, U2, G2000, DOROTHY PERKINS, FOX ladies, ADIDAS and NIKE ladies. OH MY GOD. I LOVE CLEARANCE SALES. EVERYTHING IS LIKE GOING FOR HALF PRICE AND UNDER!!!! &$%*&($*&^*

However, lots of people were there, and apparently, lots of nice stuff were already snatched.
But im lucky. I've found two SUPER PRETTY POLKA DOTS HALTER. POLKA DOTS!!! #*$*

Teehee. Im a happy girl. :)

2006-07-29T00:54:00.000+08:00

2am and the rain is falling Here we are at the crossroads once again You're telling me you're so confused You can't make up your mind Is this meant to be You're asking me But only love can stay Try again or walk away But i believe for you and me The sun will shine one day So i just play my part Pray you'll have a change of heart But i can make you see it through That's something only love can do In your arms as the dawn is breaking Face to face and a thousand miles apart I've tried my best to make you see There's hope beyond the pain If we give enough If we learn to trust But only love can stay Try again or walk away But i believe for you and me The sun will shine one day So i just play my part Pray you'll have a change of heart But i can make you see it through That's something only love can do I know if I could find the words To touch you deep inside You'll give my dreams just one more chance To let this be our last goodbye But only love can stay Try again or walk away But i believe for you and me The sun will shine one day So i just play my part Pray you'll have a change of heart But i can make you see it through That's something only love can do That's something only love can do

2006-07-26T19:16:00.000+08:00

Stop glancing as and when you deem with those piercing eyes of yours filled of guilt and suspicion.

If there should be someone you are to be afraid of, its youself.

The most disgracing and sinful act.

The utmost pretentious and selfish character.

Oh get a life, FUGLY.

2006-07-23T18:19:00.000+08:00

Im super unlucky today. Tripped in the lift today, the air-con was down in the double deck bus i took, place i wanted to go was SOOO crowded, the weather soooo hot, kitty ruined my day, i lost my ruler again for like duno how many times already and am feeling so uneasy now. WTH.

Thank god dearie was with me all the while. Bearing all my whining.

At least there is something nice to blog about. =D

2006-07-21T16:03:00.002+08:00

back

front

Pretty? Am selling this skirt. Never worn, and tag is still on. Reason for selling? CAN'T WEAR IT ANYMORE! =(

Should fit all size s and m. More details, msg me please.

Rights, im letting it off at 25 bucks, bought it at $37. Super bargin already. Ha. Request for more pictures if really interested.

Mail me: summerraine_11@hotmail.com

2006-07-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

Nineteen july will be over in an hour. While it lasts, i shall end it beautifully with memories posted. It was an exciting, crazy, busy and fun day. Well lessons are on as usual, but i think i wrote about less than fifty words today. LOL. Slacking all the way. Kudos to the teachers who tolerated. Boo to the relief chem teacher. EW. (shall not disclose her deeds to spoil my beautiful entry) And Ms Jun is so cute lah. Treat whole class to ICE CREAM! Hehe.

5A was a mixture of colours today. The four chinese hunks. WOOHOO. LOL. and indian pretties. Malay darlings. So nice! Aha. I bet those classes not participating would be so, so so bored and envious. TEEHEE.

And yes, besides racial harmony, its a special day. For me. Yes. SUPER SWEET SEVENTEEN.

I want to thank everyone for the well wishes and pressies. Especially to mention dearie for making all these possible. For planning the surprise. Oh man. The cake was SUPERB. My favourite oreo cheese cake. mmmmmmm. Heaven! Haha.

I also want to thank the people who went on the jp tour. You guys so cute lah lah lah. LOL.

I've got loads of photos to upload but my eyes are close to tearing already. Swollen eyes. Cuz i teared during celebration with family just now. AWWW. They re the best.

Oh man. Im so sore and tired. But satisfied. And happy :)

Thank you people, for making this possible and making my day. =D

2006-07-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

Oh baby. Tml's the day. Racial harmony day it is. GRINS /.

We're gonna be so high tml. We'll rock and party and scream and dance. And sing. And laugh. And have a total blast!!

Well. Nineteen July Two Oh Oh Six is gonna be a date to remember. Trust me. =D

2006-07-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

Why can't time stop still forever and never the cruel reality awaken? Why can't people be a little more considerate? Why can't everyone around me understand? Why do i feel the emptiness? Why do people become heartless overnight? Why do bad people always succeed? Why can't i be happier? Why can't i be luckier? Why can't i forgive and forget? Why am i still bearing grudges? Why am i having serious mood swings now and then? Why am i not even a little bit excited about my birthday? Why must people bring me down? Why do the room spin? Why am i tearing? Why am i doing this?

Oh darn it.

2006-07-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

okay. officially six more days. WHOOHOO !!

2006-07-11T20:37:00.000+08:00

Ok. First things first.

Shuhui sweetie i miss you too lah. When will our date be? =D

Teehee. Well today was oral, and what the heck, i dun feel like talking about the damned thing. And we swopped classrooms with a sec 3 class. Aiyeeyah. New home of 5A. Well o well. Dun feel like elaborating much either. Results fluctuating, mood too. Don't know why. Aye. Im missing nora jones' songs. Hmm. Jazzy and soothing. Uh hur.

Oh yes. Big day next wednesday. Whoohoo. Big day. Of course, im referring to teh racial harmony celebration lah, what else? Hah.

I need some money and shopping to revitalize the mingle of fluctuating mood swings and a vexation and pressurizing environment. Man, im getting the jitters. Yet again!!

2006-07-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

Mmmmmmm. Im soo missing those co. of ppl in fila.........................(EXCEPT M*****) =D

2006-07-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

I decided to de-stress a little today. After a few days of slogging, and a mental torturing six periods of maths today, and more pressure and headache, i realise it was time for some entertainment.
Aha, excuses la.bullshit.

So i went on a 4.5 hours of the sims marathon. Really cannot describe the adrenaline rush it puts people thru. Well, maybe a lil exaggerating here, but it was fun. At least, entertainment.

Oh god darn it. I cannot get my mind to working as normal again. Homework yet done, and here i am crapping.

And yes, the day is approaching. Woohoo. I think i can't wait. Ok. I CAN'T WAIT! Seriously, i believe everyone have the right to feel excited on their birthdays.
A surge of anger flashed. I cannot forget, and i never will, to that fateful sentence you shot out of your mouth a year ago. "Your birthday, so what?"
Oh hoho. What a pretty comment. I bet you wouldnt say that if its your birthday. I'll never forget the incident. Yes, im petty. I bear grudges. Dont you?

Man oh man. Never i will allow myself to be ruined again under the words of some people who are nothing better. Never i will allow anyone to crawl over my head and shit. and leaving my pride stepped on. All those tears. Maybe i could fill buckets. But please. I dont think you are in the position to hurt me so deep.

This year its gonna be different. I have people who really stands by me and thats all i need.

Yes, its my birthday, and fret not, it will NOT concern you anymore. Not again. At all. =D

2006-06-29T19:14:00.000+08:00

You have brought me
to that moment where words run dry,
to that moment where speech disappears into silence,
silence . . .

Past the point
of no return -
no going back now:
our passion-play
has now, at last,begun . .
Past all thought
of right or wrong -
one final question:
how long should
we two wait, beforewe're one . . .?

When will the blood begin to race
the sleeping bud burst into bloom?
When will the flames,
at last,
consume us . . .?